If you want to make your head explode, think about all the things in life that are uncertain. As someone who has anxious tendancies, I can tell you, that it hurts. Physically hurts. (Excuse me while I exercise some breathing techniques my therapist taught me for dealing with anxiety) Because it’s endless. Your head will burst before you run out of things…In fact, it’s much harder to find something, ANY ONE THING, that is certain. I’ll give you a second to try if you don’t believe me. I’m right, huh? You guys, I’m not telling you this to bum you out. It’s just the truth.
More than 4 years ago, Nate & I were doing everything we could to create a secure lifestyle for our family. We bought a house, we put money into investments, we started college funds & wedding funds for our daughters, he worked 48 hours every week bringing home “the bacon” and I spent all of my time, every day, worrying over how to be the best mama. We took our girls to events we thought were important to include them in, we kept track of their physical and intellectual growth like clock work, and we had our family pictures taken annually. Every thing we did, we thought was the right thing to do as a family to protect this idea that we would certainly deliver a bright future for ourselves and our daughters. One thing we did not do… was take risks.
This morning I was reading about how “our openness to taking risks directly correlates with our potential for fortune and possibility…” in the book, Unfu*k Yourself by Gary John Bishop and it reminded me of what happened in our life four years ago when we stopped living our life based on certainty. First of all, it’s true guys - NOTHING is certain, except uncertainty. We thought we were creating a “secure” future, and in many ways, we were but it wasn’t true to who we authentically were, Nate & myself.
I remember the day we stepped out of our maroon GMC Yukon and set foot onto our 160 acres in Eastern Oregon full of fear of the uncertainty of it all, and excited for it, too. I also remember Olivia “didn’t want to be a cowgirl” at the age of five, and Millaney hated the dirt so much she didn’t want to be put down. You see? They fought against uncertainty, too. It was outside of their comfort zone. If you know my kids now you wouldn’t believe that to be true of them, but we evolve into who we are authentically when we no longer live according to how we think we should, and start living authentically to what our bodies and hearts call for.
Nothing about leaving a “normal” life for this new lifestyle was certain. But we began to fall in love with it. We still have investments, and savings accounts, and we still make sure to include our girls in opportunities that we believe in. We haven’t had family pictures done for years, although we have thousands of pictures of our family together. We sold the maroon Yukon and bought a more practical “ranch” rig, and the girls are disapointed that the pickup truck doesn’t have a movie player in it, but they’ve learned some fun road games over the years and have overcome. I believe Nate works more than 48 hours a week these days, but he doesn’t keep track because he loves it too much to keep score. I still worry about my girls, and read books about parenting, but it comes from a place of love instead of fear. THAT is the difference these days, in fact. The way we live our life embraces what we love about living without being fearful of it “making sense” in the end. We weren’t hoping to find fortune in the form of matieral things or money. We were hoping to find fortune in the form of living authentically. And that was worth taking the risk to leave our city life and become Right Lane Ranch four years ago.
Stay tuned for more of the story of how we started Right Lane Ranch, how we chose Grass-fed meats to be our mission, and what life has been like living in the right lane in our next blog post, coming soon.
As always, we want to make sure that you understand it means the world to us and fills our hearts that there are people out there like you who actually want to read this story, and support our journey. Without you, this wouldn’t be possible. Thank you!